Super Fast Weekend!

Wow is it really Monday already?  My last three day weekend flew by.

It started with dinner at my MIL's for her birthday on Thursday night.  Both Walleye and I were rather cool to my FIL - I took my cues from Walleye since it's his Dad.  And I think my FIL realizes that things haven't been too good and that maybe he wasn't acting as he should be during this entire vacation ordeal.  He was overly nice to us, thanked us for everything we did and then offered to take us out for dinner as the least he could do to show his gratitude.  Walleye told him we'd see about dinner some night.

For the most part my MIL's birthday dinner went well...until we were just sitting down to eat our DQ cake and in walks Free Loader with a card and flowers and her 4 kids in tow.  She made a huge ordeal about telling my MIL that she brought flowers and wishing her a happy birthday.  Then tried to make small talk with us while her kids ran screaming and yelling through out the house.  I know this wasn't a very Christian thing to do but I didn't even acknowledge her - not once.  The only time Walleye did was when she asked a question and I had just put a bite of cake in my mouth (thankfully!).  I wasn't sure if she caught on to the cold shoulder or not.  But my BIL did call Walleye the next day to see what we were up to for the weekend - which is rather unusual. 

My FIL claims he knew nothing about the birthday party that was going on on Saturday and that my MIL's friend planned the whole thing.  I don't know if I believe him or not but at this point it doesn't matter any more.  We ended up not going - neither of us wanted to have any contact with my BIL and Free Loader.  And we were actually really busy on Saturday cleaning the house and garage to start getting ready for the upcoming BBQ. 

My FIL leaves on the 17th for another 2 - 3 week motorcycle trip.  Yes, you read that correctly...he is once again leaving for 2 - 3 weeks after having just got back.  He asked Free Loader to watch my MIL from 2:30 - 4:30 on the days an aid won't be there during that time.  Which Free Loader said she would except for when she has a job interview and then if she gets the job.

I about dropped my piece of ice cream cake when I heard Free Loader was actually interviewing for a job.  I didn't think that woman would ever work.  Good for her.  Glad she is actually going to be responsible and not live off the child and state support she receives or my BIL for that matter.  I just never thought I'd see the day.  Although I am hesitant that should she get the job that she'll actually be able to hold onto it.  It's at the prison as a guard but that means some weekend and holiday work - especially as a newbie.  And considering she quit her PT job at the gas station because they required her to work Thanksgiving.  She thought because she had 4 kids she shouldn't have to work holidays. I pray she gets the job and is smart enough to accept it and all that comes along with it. 

Besides the little bit of in-law drama on Thursday night the weekend was great.  Went by super fast.  Walleye and I spent a lot of time together.  Besides starting to get things ready for the BBQ we also were totally and completely lazy and it was heaven!

Well I think that's about enough about my in-laws and Free Loader.  In pregnancy news there's really nothing new.  I still don't feel very pregnant, but I have been very good about leaving it up to Him and not worrying too much about it.  Every once in a while I get a little worried and nervous or an overwhelming feeling that I'll have a missed miscarriage but I usually stop myself, say a quick prayer and go on with my day.  I am excited for my u/s in two weeks!  It will be nice to see the little one again.  And I really can't wait until the weekend of the 27-28 to tell my family! 

And lastly, thank you for the comments on my last post Morgan and Awaiting.  I appreciate the comments and prayers!

So over my FIL and BIL!

I am shaking mad at my FIL, BIL and Free Loader right now!  (Not that Free Loader is technically an in-law.)  I mean my hands are literally shaking I am so mad!

It is my MIL's birthday today.  When the others were on vacay we noticed on my MIL's calendar "Birthday Party" written on this Saturday's date.  I was surprised to see they had actually planned something ahead of time and even more surprised we hadn't heard anything about it.  I asked my MIL about it and both her and her aid were positive it was for one of Free Loaders kids and not my MIL. 

So Walleye and I talked about having a family birthday party for my MIL on Sunday and invite one of her good friends over but then my FIL and BIL were so horrible to Walleye we decided we would just do a nice, simple dinner on her birthday to celebrate.

So we have plans to bring chicken wraps out there for dinner tonight - one of her faves and super easy to make.  Well Walleye called his Dad to see if he had picked up a small DQ cake or any cake at all and his Dad said no and that he wasn't going to because they were having a birthday party for her on Saturday.

WHAT?!?!   Nice of them to invite us or even let us know what they were planning. 

Walleye thinks that maybe they are combining Free Loaders kid's birthday party with my MIL but even so it's still his Mom and he should have been invited.  And not to mention maybe my MIL isn't ready to handle all the commotion of a kid's birthday party with the added guests of Free Loader's family.

I just don't get it.  What did Walleye (or I) ever do to deserve this kind of treatment.  It breaks my heart because family is so important to me.  I couldn't imagine not wanting to talk to my brother or sister. 

Walleye said maybe they are mad about us not inviting them over for supper tonight but my BIL works 4 pm - midnight so it wouldn't work for him anyways and it was obvious this was planned weeks ago before they left on vacay.

Walleye isn't sure we will go on Saturday and to be honest it might be best if we stay away because I don't think I can keep my mouth shut and my MIL (nor the kid) doesn't deserve to have her birthday celebration ruined with a family feud.

It is going to be really hard to be nice and friendly to my FIL as I am still holding hurt feelings for his actions and words and the whole vacation ordeal.  At least we won't have to see Free Loader or my BIL tonight. 

T-shirts and Baby Ramblings

I had my first OB visit - well first visit with my OB and to be honest I don't like her.  She wasn't very friendly.  I felt like she rushed through my appointment - I was told when I checked in she had two patients in labor and could get called to the hospital so maybe that's why.  I felt like she didn't really listen to my questions and made me feel like I was asking dumb questions.  She didn't even introduce herself when she walked in the room.  I don't know if I am being overly picky or overly spoiled at the place in the cities or what.  My next appointment with her is September 20 and if I have the same feelings I think I will then think about switching OBs. 

We weren't able to find the heartbeat on the doppler but she assured me I was too early (8w6d).  She also assured me that my lack of and disappearing of symptoms can be completely normal for all people and that unless I was experiencing bleeding or major cramps things are fine. 

I have decided to let go of all my worries and trust in God that this will be a healthy pregnancy leading to a healthy baby in March 2012.  Besides all the stress from worrying can't be good for the baby (or me)!  I prayed last night for Him to help me let go of the worries and I feel as though I have a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.  I am so thankful for that.

I ordered t-shirts for my Mom and MIL today!  They are so stinking cute!  I got grey one's with Grandma Est. 2012 on the front in blue and pink lettering.  My Mom's birthday is August 29th so on the 28th we will give it to her as a gift!  My MIL's birthday is tomorrow but that's a little too early to tell her yet so will give it to her closer to 12 weeks.  I can't wait to give it to them!  I know my MIL won't be able to see the t-shirt but I thought then every time the aid dresses her in it they'll tell her they're putting her Grandma shirt on and she'd get a kick out of that. 

My Mom recently retired so I was going to put "I start my new job as GRANDMA in March 2012" on the shirt but decided I liked the less is more approach.  I am going to have one made that says "Future VIKINGS fan" with an arrow pointing down and "Kick Off: 03.14.11" on the back for me to wear to the VIKINGS game on 10.09.11 and then Walleye and I can get our pic taken at the game and we can use it as our Christmas card.  

Walleye thinks I added the "Est. 2012" on the shirts I ordered as a dig against Free Loader's kids...which isn't true, I actually wasn't thinking about them when I came up with this and I wanted somehow to put a date on the shirt.  But now that he's pointed it out I hate to admit it but I am pleasantly pleased that it will help reiterate that Free Loader's kids ARE NOT my MIL's grandchildren.  Is that horrible? 

I made the shirt(s) at customizedgirl dot com. And found a $5 off coupon for it at retailmenot dot com. 

As mentioned above it is my MIL's birthday tomorrow so Walleye and I are bringing supper out to her.  We were going to suggest a birthday dinner on Sunday but one of Free Loader's kids has a birthday party on Saturday and to be completely honest we have no desire to see my BIL or Free Loader after the horrible way they treated Walleye on their trip.  In fact I am having a hard time with the fact that I have to see my FIL tomorrow night at dinner.  I am still so angry with him about this entire vacation!  Did I mention that they were supposed to come back on Friday so we could leave town on Saturday morning but then they said they'd be back sometime Saturday which turned into actually getting back MONDAY!  I know, I know, i need to let it go.

Return of the sleepless Sunday night...

I am not a very good sleeper.  It's gotten worse the last few years and for some reason Sunday nights are the worst.  I usually could fall asleep by a decent time but then would wake in the middle of the night and not be able to get back to sleep.  But for the past few months I have been blessed with great sleep almost every single night.  And I haven't had a really horrible night of sleep in I don't remember how long.

Until last night.  Could be that I slept 1.5 hours of the 2 hour drive back from my parents yesterday.  Or that I fell asleep on the couch a few times last night.  Or that I went to be at 9 pm.  Or that the sleepless Sunday nights have returned.  UGH!  But Walleye came to bed about 12:30 and the door squeaking woke me up.  Then I had to pee.  Then the cat wanted to crawl on me.  Then I needed a drink.  By that time I was wide awake!  WIDE AWAKE.

So out to the couch I went.  I think I finally dozed off about 2:30 and slept off and on since.  I am tired and a bit crabby this morning.

I hope it was a one time thing and that this isn't the beginning of the bad sleeps.

On a positive note the weekend was fantastic!  Absolutely fantastic.

Tomorrow I meet my OB Dr.  Which is good because I am starting to freak out that something is wrong as I don't really have much for symptoms.  They seemed to have pretty much stopped - except for the tiredness, needing to pee a lot (but I think that's due to my drinking SO much water) and the occasional sore ta-tas.  I am hoping she will be able to calm my nerves and reassure me that this is normal.  And maybe, just maybe if we can't hear a heartbeat with the doppler (because I heard 8w6d can sometimes be too early to hear it on a doppler) do a full blown u/s. 

I guess one good thing about the lack of symptoms was it made it that much easier to not tell anyone this weekend.

We went to Mass yesterday in the Cathedral I grew up attending.  It is always so good to go to Mass there.  I really love that Church.  The message yesterday was one I really need to take to heart and listen to.  It was all about trusting in God.  I need to learn to let go of all the worry and anxiety, especially about my disappearing symptoms, and just trust in God that this baby arrives safe and sound in March.  

Weekend!

I am so excited for the weekend!  A little sad that tomorrow is my second to last Summer Friday off.  But I know I am "spolied" a bit with having Friday's off every summer.

Tomorrow I am going clean, clean, clean...well after a work conference call (probably done still in my PJs!) and after my oil change and lunch date with Walleye.

Our spare room soon-to-be nursery (OMGoodness I can't believe I can actually say that!!!) needs to desperately be cleaned out before we can clear it out. Plus we need to be able to use the bed in a few weeks for our annual wedding party BBQ. 

The basement needs some straightening up, especially my scrapbooking room as Walleye just threw things around when we got water in the basement last week (which can't exactly blame the guy but I am so not the type to not move things in an organized fashion no matter how much of a hurry I am in.)

And just general dusting, vacuuming, etc.  Oh and we can't forget the purple and gold pedicure on the to-do list!  :)

Saturday is when the FUN begins!  We are heading to my parents for Saturday-Sunday.  Lunch with my Mom and sister on Saturday.  Then my sister, cousin, niece and nephew are going to VIKINGS Training Camp!  YEAH!  Can't wait!  SKOL VIKINGS!  And my 6yo niece is going to the Cheerleading Camp - which having been a h.s. cheerleader excites me to no end! Walleye is going to hang with Duckie as neither have any desire to go to training camp.

Sunday we have our annual family picnic with my Dad's side.  Even though I just saw them all at my cousin's wedding in the beginning of July I can't wait to see everyone again.  not to mention the taco salad my sister is bringing and the sour cream raisin bars that are sure to be there!

The only thing I am hesitant about is how in the world I am ever going to keep my mouth shut about being knocked up all weekend!  it's going to be excruciating!!!  But I have to keep telling myself it will all be worth it in three weeks when I can surprise my Mom with her "Grandma" birthday gift from the cats and Baby! 

Oh and update from my last post - my cousin is pregnant.  She announced at 5w4d - a little early in my book, considering he m/c last year but she's so excited I can see how it was hard for her not too.  I am still praying for her that this baby sticks and if you have any extra prayers to spare please send one her way. 

Prayers for my cousin please

I have a cousin who is a couple years younger than me.  We used to be somewhat close but have grown apart the older we get.  She got married 4 years ago in June and they had been TTC pretty much ever since.  I have a sneaking suspicion she might have PCOS but I've never gotten up the courage to ask her about her TTC journey.  We are very similar in our body builds and look quite a like and I just can't get past this feeling that she too is suffering from PCOS. 

Last September she announced on Facebook she was PG (and was like 4 weeks along) and a few weeks later posted saying there was no baby at the u/s.  I have been praying for her daily ever since and looking back really wish I would have reached out to her last Fall.   

She just posted a semi-cryptic message on FB that leads me to believe she is PG again and I pray that she is and that all goes well.  And that she has a happy, healthy baby next late winter/early spring.  I have a feeling she is really early in the pregnancy as some of her posts from the last two weeks talk about pills to help in the baby makin'.

So if you wouldn't mind saying a prayer or two for her and her baby I would much appreciate it! 

Inquisitive MIL!

The PCA scheduled to work the 3:30 - 9:30 shift with my MIL on Saturday cancelled (that's a whole fiascoe in itself for another post!!) so Walleye and I filled in.  Actually let me back up - I filled in while Walleye first tackled water in our basement and then spent the rest of the time mowing my FIL's yard and fixing the lawn mower. 

So needless to say my MIL and I had a lot of time to chat on Saturday afternoon/evening and it had been a while since she had asked me whether or not Walleye and I were going to have kids so I just knew it was coming.

So as I sat there talking with her she got quite and then said "I have something to ask but I don't know how." I told her she can ask me anything and to just spit it out.  She hemmed and hawed for a minute or two and I could tell she was trying to think of a delicate way to bring it up. 

Finally she said, "are you and Walleye trying to not have kids?"

"No, we are trying." I responded

"Well maybe you should go to the Dr?" she said.

I replied "Well to be completely honest we have been to a Dr.  In fact many Drs.  and are now going to the cities to a Reproductive Endocrinologist as I have been diagnosed with PCOS."

She got quiet and said "Oh, at least your seeing someone because I was going tell you how you might need to get things checked out if you've been trying for this long with no luck." and then she proceeded to tell me how she used NFP to conceive my BIL and thought if she did backwards NFP she'd space out my BIL and Walleye but "OOPS!  That doesn't work."

It was awkward and I was glad she didn't ask many questions and was just satisfied that we had been going to a Dr.  I have barely given my Mom any details so I really didn't want to have to give my MIL much.  When I told Walleye about the conversation he was a little surprised I told her about the PCOS as the last time I couldn't tell her.  Then he said he never thought about how awkward it would be for me to talk about it with his Mom and that he didn't think his Mom would every have told her MIL anything that private - but he was appreciative I told her. (Probably so he doesn't get grilled and have to tell her himself!)

I did feel somewhat bad for not telling her the complete truth but that announcement will come soon enough.  And I just know once we tell her she will tell all of her PCA's.  One of her PCA's is the MIL of one of Walleye's former roommates and I just know the minute that PCA hears she'll tell the former roommate and he'll tell all Walleye's friends and we want to be in control of when/how people find out. 

It was a less than stellar weekend.  Not only did we spend mucho time out at my MIL's but my BIL accused Walleye of being completely selfish, self-centered and not willing to help out ever.  What?!?!  Have we not given up every single evening, then taken over the shift for the PCA even though we haven't been trained in my MIL's care necessities?  He went so far as to tell Walleye that they can't even enjoy their vacation because Walleye is making it so hard for them to.  Huh?  Walleye hasn't complained to them once and the only thing was one day my FIL called Walleye at work to talk about who was covering the PCA on Saturday.  But Walleye was at work and couldn't talk so was sort of short with him but told him we had it covered.  But really?  If they cared that much then why aren't they calling my MIL more than once every few days?  Or calling Walleye or I for updates and not to yell at us?  Or really, why'd they even go? 

On top of all that drama right before we had to be at my MIL's on Saturday I went downstairs to feed the cats and noticed the carpet in the hallway and scrapbooking room were completely sopping wet and it had started to get the sheet rock wet.  So I had to run to my MIL's while Walleye called pluming/heating guy to come take a look.  Thankfully one of the hosts from our wedding has his own plumbing and heating company so he came right out (and for FREE!).  Turns out we had completely forgotten to change the air filter in the furnace and it was so clogged it caused the A/C coil to freeze up.  So we have to turn off the A/C and let it thaw and dry out good.  We have every fan in the house blowing on something and our poor dehumidifier has been running on full blast non-stop...but thankfully it wasn't anything more serious.